1995, senior year i died
1999, i tried
look alive, look engaged
not look caged on the public stage
but i pour lie/lye in the public i/eye
eyes know i tried, eyes know i tried
i don't bait on the issue of hate
a lot of cruel people push god like weight
i didn't hurt you, i hurt my lack of self
what you call my intrinsic wealth
it's fading
i'm ageing
i'm dying
i'm debating
end it all
meladramatic
not fade to black
fade to fucking static

not breathing, she's not breathing

i lie to myself, i keep a tight fist
i know that i don't exist
what is I then? male quite thin
bone flesh bleach white skin
never look to close at your hand
never look to close at I/eye am
never look to close at I be/V
never look to close at what you call me
been there done that
stood here I done sat
i don't get/kid the id i call myself
fresh out the box fresh off the shelf
on the 1's and 2's breathing
weazing leaving fingerprints on the ceiling
lost he prize lost my left side
lost my left eye
can't say I didn't try
but you can if you like
i miss those hospital nights

not breathing, she's not breathing

i might be one
i might be two/too
the don't i like of concept
coming unglued
catch the minature sun
put down the gun
you can't run
let it go
know when to/know one to
row
expectations who's vacations
change the station
change the vibration
i been ringing the button to call
night falls on hospital walls
i'm solid
keep your ID bracelet in your wallet
i'm tired
people stand up, when i say that
they get paid to not play that
solid food i breath while i eat
there's a specialist they'd like me to meet

not breathing, she's not breathing

how do know where i'm at
if you haven't been where i've been
understand where i'm coming from
my egomy ego
out the door of my big blue seville
licensed to ill.

fade